well. havent done this in a while. that was shown. hah. well...schools kinda boring adn sucks. its almost new years. I am desperate to find a number and int eh process of calling twenty six wrong numbers, have made a fool of myself. how is it possible you say? when you done it so frequently. well, my friends. I have my ways. one of my friends is being stalked or so. and another one is so fucking confusing. gah. feiken sheisa. I go to RW youth with Katie still. whom I hate for that. But I still love you, Right SwEETIE?! hahaha. good times GOOd TImeS! soo...... Leanneis a fool who wrecked my call. Shopping on boxing day was interesting. buying FOOD! hah. well. that about covers my year since I last wrote. good bye journal who hasnt even kicked me out yet. goodbye. and we will become silhouettes.

Thats me! well. the journal! lol!
CAMP IN 2 DAYS!
HURRUH!

even thiough I was only up there for a few minutes. IT WAS AWESOME! Everything wasso small! smaller tehna model of it all. but it was so even, adn just calm and carefree. Thenn the pilot was elling me about everything. and all these facts about everything I was seeing and pointing out to me what was what and so on. it was so great. then there were pushgroups, adn everyone gave up on those. but we would go adn get teh glider that came in from each flight and push it back to the rest of tehm (there were 3) and push it in place. it was fun, but we kept on smacking our heads onteh wings. I found out I really am VERY pale.because we took a pictuer of me and Melissa's arms together. and it looked like a black and white, adn at firstt all you could see is a white block-ish th ing on the screen, but that was my arm, adn her arm was under it, and yeah. we started doing M*A*S*H on everybody. it was SO funny. one of our riends will be a cannibal when he grows up... anyways. Buonagiorno!

THE POSTAL SERVICE LYRICS

"Against All Odds"

How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you (ooh..)
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave?
'Cause we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
But take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And that's what I've gotta face

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

But take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
But to wait for you is all I can do
And that's what I've gotta face

Take a look at me now
I'll just be standing here
And you coming back to me
Is against the odds
And that's a chance I've gotta face

Take a look at me now
Take a look at me now
(Take a look at me now)
Take a look at me now
(Take a look at me now)
Take a look at me now
(Take a look at me now) [2x]
Take a look at me now
(Take a look at me now) [2x]
Take a look at me now
(Take a look at me now) [2x]
Take a look at me now
(Take a look at me now)
Take a look at me now




Song Ive been searching for for a while, I love it....andyes. what else is new? I bet Emma is even sick, what if TJ and Holly are secretly going ouit? oh la la! blah. going to do some Tandem tomorow, yay! I was so out of it today. And At the Amazing Race event, It sucked because Willie and David wouldnt listen, and Shayne had a map. and I got scratched wehn I tried to take it away! :'( yeah, I was feeling just spaced out ALL day long. and it sucked. so then when I got home I had a wuick snack because yeah and then had a nap till around 630uish. and when I woke up, I just freaked out, because I didnt know hte day or time or anything, I was just so confused. It was SO scary. tehn we went to Steinbach, I pawned a ring. wen and bought shoes. I bought a tacky plasticky pair just to spite my sister. lol! she was like, oh, those are ugly, and I was okay! Ill get them! stupid, but fun. then we went to McDonalds and they got whatever tehy got and I got juice. IO like juice *nods head* I have to go though. and sleep. me likes sleep. Arrivederci!

IT's MAY DAY! AUGH! BATTLE SHIP! BATTLE SHIP! DOWN DOWN DOWN! anyways. Arthur told Alecia. Alecia got squirmy about it. Arthur got mad. I got mad at Arthur. he doesn't remember the promises. so yes. That got me mad. and then, my tooth started to ache. and it was blah. im so tired...

okay, the order of my day!
Wake up at 5ish, try to sleep for an hour.
go out at 6, complain to my mum.
mum takes me to hospital. we were there till 7:49!!
is it home
sleeps till like, 2:30ish
eats yogourt
goes online
does some chores
sleeps more
gets higher fever
mum comes home
gives me penicillin
me doesnt like penicillin, is very bad stuff. had way too much as a kid...
likes that theyre orange though
takes them and drinks juice
Arthur calls
does dishes
goes outside and rides bike
goes online and speaks random to Janessa
Janessa doesnt seem mad a moi
is bored
doesnt go to youth
goes outside more
buahahahaha

okay. so, this is a journal of Miss. Throttle. Nice to meet you! Manda. you know Im doing this post for you, lol! so, blah. there it is.

okay. It didnt work out last night. Adam called me and called it off. tHANKYOU! lol! okay. so, we're going to BLUMENROTE! this time. wow. Thats a much longer time. but it'll work! I know it will! We're going to meet at the intersection of lilac, and 2nd. (kelsey's) and from there, go and shine a light into Alecia's room. yay! I hope I don't get caught! I hope not! so I'm going to leave a note about where I went, and why if I get noticed missing. And if I get grounded, it's not like it'll be forevvver. An dlIke Adam and Janessa said. It'll be a cool story to tell the kids. awesome! My bag is ready. I will be using bear's bike. Ill be walking out teh door. and then biking as fast as I can, AND I'm bringing my dog. that's right! Cha-ato, my mastiff/akita. he's coming too. what a wonderful thought, eh? I just hope he doesnt starrt barking. I also dont wanna die tonight. especially not by that *car* right Adam! hah! anywyas. gotta go and do dishes and set up my fish tank. more later.

okay. it was Adam beside me earlier. I dont know why I didnt write who. Sorry dude. I will add you, when the time is right. I promise. ugh. I just turned back to teh computor, and I couldve thrown up. I swear. I hate being sick. I REALLY do. bloodwork tomorrow,a nd I am petrified. I really am. I am not playing anyone when I say that. I don't know what to do anymore. And Another friend, she was telling em that shes fat,a dn that she wants to go on a HUGE diet. that she wants to be skinny. *cries* I don't want ehr to do that. she looks fine! She might be a little over weight. but not to go on a huge diet. tonight is the night. I am meeting Adam. as youve read. 3 posts in one day. amazing. and Im so worried. what if something happens tonight?! I just have to pray it wont. If I cant get into my house. I shall sleep in the shed. but I really got to go.

okay.. so..
tonight. 12 , midnight. I am meeting with Adam
we are biking midway. and I have no idea what we are even gonna do there. fun. anywyas. biking. itll be cold. um, bringing the dog. glosticks. cellphone, me, flashlight. and whatever else comes to mind. itll be interesting. sneaking out into the middle of the night, out of my bedroom window. I'll have to take the screen out though. and put the barrle under the window. and get the dog's stuff ready. what an enjoyable time. no sleep for the entire night. and I have bloodwork in the morning. yucky. blood.... anywyas. I'm still at school. this awill be weird to look back to one day far from now. very interesting. it's 12:35. 2nd half lunch. and he's right beside me again. lol. Janessa is right by me too now. we're going onto allt eh sites we shouldnt. but its all good. so eyah.